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Y'know what? Do I really care if someone reads this or not? What-the fuck-ever. I can take it. I don't want to make an LJ cut, and I don't know why. Paine, I'm beginning to understand something you said to me from a couple days back...I'll tell you what I mean once I see you in person.
Today, a crappy day. Why? Guess who came to visit me? Guess... Thadius J. Hawkswell. This so FRUSTRATES me!!! He thinks I called him. I didn't. He must've been drunk, but he says he hasn't been drunk for three weeks. Like I should believe him? I don't know... But I don't think he'll come around anymore. I said it right in his face that he's no part of the family I cared about. I thought he sent Mr. Coombs to watch over me, but I guess Thadius didn't trust him or he got impatient and the detective's stupid little mission was to get me back home. Too bad... Oh, I'm guessing you want to know who Thadius is? Pfft. Like I'm telling you. I'm not putting a thing of my horrible, horrible past on here because I so want to get far, far away from it.
I almost feel bad for hitting Squall like that, but mostly, I'm not. He needed to stay of my business anyway. Guess who's up next to take the plate? Zidane...
*heavy sigh* He seemed kinda concerned and willing to help in possible return for the rest of us helping him. Zidane, if you happen to come across my LJ, let me just say this: I just have really big problems on trust, okay? You're new here and have so much to learn on Gala, which is why I'm trying so hard not to...treat you like I've treated Squall.
I'm so mixed up and frustrated right now. I'll go see someone (Paine, Gippal, Seifer more likely) when I'm ready. Right now, I just want time to myself... I need some Liz time.
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[18 Mar 2005|10:48pm] |
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Yeah, so it's not so classified anymore. Sue me. :-p
Ah man, so much happened today! More people arrive. Geez, how many more? Enough until the whole facility of Balamb Garden explodes? There's a couple people with tails, and they're obviously from other worlds. Paine and Gippal haven't recognized them, so it must be a completely different world from them. Zidane and Kuja are their names. I've briefly met Kuja earlier this evening. Gosh, he's so distant, and I haven't heard from him lately. I wonder where he went...? Poor guy. He must be taking it so hard. Zidane, I didn't get a chance to talk with him, because Seifer and I hung out a little and went to go look for Paine. Paine: I guess you're doing okay, right? Maybe you should go talk to Gippal later. I really don't think he'd mistreat anyone like that. My guts are usually 9 times outta 10 right! Oh, and I sure do hope you get your backpack returned. Everyone heard the announcement. I guess that was real necessary for Squall to do that, since, ya know, Garden's so BIG! Lucky me, I haven't got lost even once. I'm mostly in the cafeteria or the dorms. I know those two pathways like the back of my hand.
( For Seifer to see, besides my own eyes ;) )
Goin' to sleep now. G'night!!!
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[05 Feb 2005|10:02pm] |
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I'm currently staying at Balamb Garden. Publically I cannot reveal to anyone what's going on. It's to prevent panic. To my boss at work: Go ahead and let me go. I'll be away for a long time, and am not worthy to just keep going on like this. Maya and Abby, I might as well quit. It was...kinda nice, in meeting you two. Maybe we'll run into each other one day. Tell Lin I quit, not just for personal reasons, but for the good of mankind. You'll all understand someday.
( Only my allies/friends nearby me can view the rest of this entry. Sorry. Classified )
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[18 Jan 2005|11:27pm] |
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"Falling Down" by Staind, playing on my laptop |
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( Absolutely private! )
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[28 Nov 2004|07:23pm] |
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playing on my laptop: that damn good Chevelle CD, again! |
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On a train from Esthar. Should be back in Deling by midnight, I hope. By then, I'll just crash on the couch and catch some Z's.
Packed up all my mom's things because I don't trust my "father" in dealing with her valuables. He'd probably sell them all on Ebay. I just know he would if I didn't pick them up. >.>
I hope my two closest friends, Sophia and Seifer, are okay...
And Squall-ass, I'll bet, will be demanding. ...And why do I get the feeling that he'll be all nosy and shit some more? I really hate pity.
Grr...thinkin' about that stuff makes me mad. From last night's journal entry, you can see that I was pissed at him.
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[27 Nov 2004|09:42pm] |
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on my laptop: Chevelle - To Return |
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Currently at my old home in Esthar, trying to take it easy for the rest of the night. I'm thankful that I will be left alone. I don't want my "old man" talking to me or anything.
( Not open to the public. Only Rinoa, Seifer, and Sophia may read. Go away, Squall-ass! )
I'll finish packing up my mom's stuff tomorrow.
I just want...to vent to somebody on AIM. Rinoa, Seifer, or Sophia would be best. Fuck, even Paine maybe. I just want to stop feeling the way I do now... :*(
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| HAHAHAHA fun stuff |
[26 Nov 2004|11:20am] |
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That damn good Chevelle CD's playing on my laptop. |
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HAHA I feel a little better right now...
*laughing* Paine and Squall-ass... Ewwww!
EWWWW overall. Sophia, I hope you don't really think of me like that
POWER RANGERS MOVIE?! HELLLLLL NOOOOOOO!!! The Power Rangers fucking suck ass, so bad.
...The only thing I can do with pie is eat it! XD
*bursts out laughing* Seifer, dude, you have to try this one out XD
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[25 Nov 2004|10:54pm] |
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on my laptop: "Blown Away" by Staind |
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I understand why, but I really won't mention it here in public. It's just something kept between him, me, and Sophia. They're just going through a very hard time right now.
And now, so am I... I spent Thanksgiving by my-fucking-self. I called mom, and that didn't help much. I think I was crying. I believe mom was too, because she said she misses me. But no way am I leaving Deling. I just started a new life here, and I believe I'm happier this way.
( Only Seifer and Sophia can see this. )
I'm gonna blast the music on my headphones until I pass out I guess. I need to stop thinking about this crap. I gotta stop being so damn depressed.
Life really sucks right now.
( Lyrics to the song that matches my mood. I'm just depressed as this song right now )
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| So, since when has my journal become a gathering for others? |
[25 Nov 2004|10:57am] |
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on my laptop: Chevelle - T.T.O.T.(C.D.U.I.) |
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I had to abbreviate in the music box, because the CD's title is too long to fit on there.
I'm hooked on this Chevelle CD... It's just so good. I highly recommend it. I believe that "Squall-ass" guy Seifer and I dissed last night has the same CD as well. Hehe, that nickname for moron is growing on me. XD
Anyway, check out my entry below. Two weirdos said hi. Well, one, This Yazuu guy kinda crept me out a bit, probably because he called me by my formal name. Only my mom can call me that. The other is known as Paine. She's alright...
So, I know my life isn't dull to them. Wow, my life's a soap opera, even the name of my journal sounds soap opera-ish! I almost considered changing it to something like "The Gathering of Bored Weirdos, harrassing Lizzy," but nah! It's too long, and I'm too lazy to do that. XD
So, Seifer will arrive at noon. I'll be sure to spill out all the details, even to those two weirdos out there. It's nothin' too personal, like my problems. Maybe I'll take him to the movies, to see The Kranks, either that or just have lunch and a nice little chat with him in my hotel room. Either way, it'll be FUN. :)
I must go now. Buh bye!
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[24 Nov 2004|08:50pm] |
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OMG, I have A LOT to talk about here! Where do I start?!? Okay Liz, calm down. Take some deep breaths... Hahahaha...
Okay, first, I was at work, last day for the week, since it's Thanksgiving weekend and all. I'm usually happy to work over at the music/book store. I was feeling alright today, I guess. Well, work was fine yeah, and I bought 3 CDs today! Chevelle's newest album (ugh, too lazy to look at the box to remember the damn title of the album!), Fuel's newest album, Natural Selection, and the new Evanescence album CD/DVD that just came out yesterday!!! I wanted to check out Revis, but I didn't see a copy of their album anywhere. Sold out, for now. I'll check again another time!
And after that, I went to the video store and got the Chronicles of Riddick on DVD! YEAH!!! Kickass! I watched it a while earlier.
I loooooove the new Chevelle album. It's SWEET!!!
And just a few minutes ago, guess who IMed me? Guess...c'mon guess... Seifer! :-p
( Only viewable to me, Seifer, and Sophia. )
You know what else is cool?! He's coming to visit me, TOMORROW!!! Which is just fuckin' perfect because I'll be in my hotel room. I told him where to meet me, and it's a cryin' shame Sophia can't come over too. :( They're far away from each other to meet up close. But hey, I won't be spending Thanksgiving by myself after all!
I think I got the whooooole thing planned in my head. Damn, I'm all... cheery and shit. I'm rarely like that, ya know?! But still, SEIFER and I, meeting together. In person. And he's, so...hot!!! XD
ANYWAY, he says he'll be over by noon. So we'll have lunch and chat, give each other flirting looks (haha, I just know that) and... the rest will be improvised. I really don't know what else.
I'm so excited! Can't wait! It'll be frickin' awesome!!! ^^ *jumps up and down, not literally* :D
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[23 Nov 2004|10:13pm] |
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playing on my laptop: Jimmy Eat World's self titled album! |
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Awww, *pout* Seifer, that hottie I met on AIM the other night, isn't online... I don't know. He might be online later. Hmm, I wonder if he's where he's supposed to be now... At that Balamb Garden place or whatever.
Well, I just got on the computer. I was watching some funny shows on TV. World Comedy Cup (last week's episode, but hey! I liked that one!), According to Jim (HAHA Angry Pete the Turkey shot Jim in the ass by pecking at a crossbow. Pete paid the price by gettin' run over by the man XD) and Rodney (crazy relatives...Kinda remind me of my damn parents!)
I was pretty...blah, at work today. I didn't really feel like socializing. I helped out those who needed it, but I was kind of zoned out like a zombie.
Now I'm listening to the Jimmy Eat World album that got me hooked on this band. Catchy, catchy songs...
I feel much better tonight, than I was this morning.
Seifer... ;) I'm anxious to have another little chat with you. ;x :D Sophia too, because she's cool. Hehe ^^
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| So, mom called back after all. |
[23 Nov 2004|08:15am] |
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( I only want to share with Seifer and Sophia. Nobody else understands me... )
Another day of work. I think I'll distance myself from Abbey and Maya. They're nice girls, surprisingly around my age, and I'm not in the mood to socialize today. I'd probably be a bitch and scare them away for a time. >_<
...At least I got Seifer and Sophia now. So not exactly everything's crappy for me. I should follow my own advice and keep positive as much as possible.
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